Unbearable joy, profound loneliness and sadness. Liberation! Wild energy and self reflection. Some short poems giving a window into what it was like to be a young monk in a Japanese Zen Monastery.
bitter cold
winter full moon
still erupts my heart
—
what a relief
this state of mind
even suffering is forgiven
—
long walk to town
nothing to grasp
karma like a chronic smirk
—
my heart is pierced
the light so vibrant
solitary and sublime
—
it pushes comets across the sky
this fragrance
connecting my heart and belly
—
this life
what to do?
The Sun and the moon
shattering my pelvis
—
what is going on?
my body
responding to the infinite?
—
Preparing to put on a robe
all I ever wanted
was to be normal
destiny called to me
slowly I am overthrown
—
destiny
my heart burning
what is this life?
faith faith faith
—
all of these tests
dharma relentless teacher
—
so thankful for this training
robe of wild indigo
—
lights off,
in the moonlight
I can see everything
—
monk, lonely monk
I don’t feel mine is a life to shine
—
this state of mind
this light
no one to share it with
no one to meld
in this
—
This lonesome old temple
first plum blossom
candle and Ryokan*
ordination in two months
how can I ever explain this love?
*Ryokan Taigu (1758 -1831) was a beloved eccentric poet and Soto Zen Master
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beaten down
pummeled
grace
—
Mu: bring everything into oneness
walking by the pond
my body feels
the pond as me
—
sword of prajna, floating on
the dragon’s breath
in the azure sky
—
Sitting by the bell
and the patriarchs reveal themselves
there we sit,
the universe an unfolding vacuum
and my mind weeps love
—
this honesty
can the world take it?
this unchanging
amidst the changing
—
Bucket shatters
you don’t know nothing
moon and me
-what joy!
(Kensho poem)
—
twenty seven
what will become of me?
the eternal lamp
but will I be enough?
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Dharma, a name
truth bends to me
through this heavy moon
—
love and loss
sometimes too much to bear
This evening warm Spring wind
my mind forgets all cares
—
what does it mean?
this loss and suffering?
the lessons of the universe
relentless, and yet, this spring evening
sure is humming
—
walking along
and then
what is it? That which is constant in this
changing world
And the mind unwinds as the patriarchs
whisper the answer
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Ordination
because that is not enough
—
Hanshan*
candlelight
time and space beyond me
—
*Han Shan was a Wild Chinese Hermit of the Tang Dynasty beloved by Chan and Taoist practitioners
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Roshi away
time to play
but this old Japanese temple
and no lover to become one with
—
Freedom
my belly
and the waves grow light through my skull
—
Full moon
Spring is here
My heart leaves no escape
—
Missing my mounatins
Sake and Ryokan
What freedom is this life!
—
Destiny
who will see it
these days, as always,
I am lonesome to talk with someone wise
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I have no desire
for control
wave upon wave pummels me in ecstasy
—
I’ll let all of you cool guys
be good at this life
I am broken leaves
pummeled ten times a day
—
Awakened mind
I receive
and accept
—
Heaven and earth
unfold beneath your feet
please know this
joy of true freedom
—
you must be so honest
you must be so curious
you must be so courageous
and you must make a choice
to die or realize it
—
out in the open
exposed and unguarded
not asking permission
shining in broad daylight
behold the roar of the common dandelion
—
Do not be afraid
Wow beautiful 🙏
Wow thanks for sharing this poetry it’s so intimate , honest and amazing frankly🙏
I am so glad you liked them! Thanks, Robert!
Just sort of stumbled on your stuff and I’m floored- – it’s awesome.
Oh thanks! Great to hear! Please share it with someone who might benefit from it.
Thank you — these poems are so beautiful. I would like to share some of these in a writing and Tai Chi workshop I’m developing. Is the name of this young monk known?
Hi Ruth. Thanks for your interest. I am the monk who wrote the poems.
Wow! Thank you for letting me know — it touched me deeply. Is it OK with you if I use any of the poetry you’ve shared here in a workshop, crediting you as the writer? The use would be very respectful.
Sure thing, Ruth. Any chance you could send a link to your workshop? Thanks!👍🏼
Hi Corey — I’m doing one Zoom and one in-person workshop. I don’t yet have a website for my writing or Tai Chi work, and/but this workshop is part of a fundraiser by Amherst Writers and Artists and is up on their website. The link for the Zoom workshop is https://amherstwriters.org/event/tai-chi-writing-with-
ruth-leibowitz/ and the link for the in-person workshop (in Portland) is https://amherstwriters.org/event/tai-chi-
writing-in-person-with-ruth-leibowitz-in-sw-
portland-oregon/. I could also share a flyer with you, but I don’t see a way to upload a document. I’m still working on the content – this is the first time I’m weaving these two passions (writing and internal martial arts) together in one place.
Those classes sound wonderful. Thanks very much!