Awareness Tidbits: Removing Ideas of Good or Bad

In Japan in the monastery I used to go out into the kyudo area behind the Hondo on the free days before the 6pm mandatory dinner. I wanted to take some time to address what was happening inside of me in an unstructured way. Try to allow it to sort out if I gave it…

Little Tidbits from Class: Non-Directed Explorations

Just now in class, at the end with the non-directed standing, I try to let go of my intentions. I try to let go of that “fix-it” head. I try to feel the actual present reality. What is happening?? And my head moves forward on my neck, bobbling over the edge. A little voice says,…

Internal Alchemy: When It is Too Much

A couple of people in my classes have asked what to do when, while doing the Qigong or Zhan Zhuang, the energetic internal process is too much? This is a really good question, and for some people it will make complete sense, while others will have no clue what we are talking about, as we…

Internal Process Incomplete Recommended Reading List

I’ve been teaching these Internal Process classes for the last few months.  I put together a very incomplete reading list for the people joining the class and in the group on Facebook.  These books have been helpful to me in my internal process work.  I’ll add to it over time.  Please suggest books in the…

Deeper Dimensions of Non-Directed Body Movement

  I have written about Non-Directed Body Movement before.  As I have been teaching more classes lately online, and we’ve been doing it together, I’d like to give a bit more detail of how it helped me and still helps me to go deeper into my process.  I hope it gives some of you permission…

Moving from the Source: Riffs on True Embodimennt

  These days, my religion is just walking around.  The sutra I’m chanting is this form in space.  I’m not interested in yes or no or smart or dumb. I’m worshiping the light beneath my feet. What is it that is stepping?  Walking?  Standing?  Sitting?  Laying down?  What is it that is holding us up?…

Expressing Something True

It can be extremely helpful if someone acknowledges what we’ve been experiencing in our own internal process or we happen to read or hear someone talk about something which we’ve been experiencing, but no one else seems to understand. It can be a lifesaver. Or at least reading or hearing them talk about some of…

The Most Intense Person in the Room

  For all of you folks out there who are always the most intense person in the room, or are waiting for everyone to notice the subtext, or can feel other people as yourself, or are a walking pressure cooker, or can’t get yourself going in one direction, or you feel like an exposed nerve, or…

Zen’s Long Slow Humbling Healing Process of the Heart.

In Zen, much of the focus is on doing Tanden energy work.  Please see my article on Tanden to learn about it.  The Tanden work is huge and never ending, but with time and experience, it becomes apparent that we are also doing heart energy work, the long healing process of working out our emotional…

How Sanzen Shaped My Way of Doing Bodywork

  “If we open ourselves completely, consciously or unconsciously, we are ready to listen to the voiceless voice of the universe.” – Dainin Katagiri Recently someone asked me what my practice looks like now that I am not doing koan work intensively in the monastery.  This post is a bit of a response to that…