Awareness Tidbits: Removing Ideas of Good or Bad

In Japan in the monastery I used to go out into the kyudo area behind the Hondo on the free days before the 6pm mandatory dinner. I wanted to take some time to address what was happening inside of me in an unstructured way. Try to allow it to sort out if I gave it…

Little Tidbits from Class: Non-Directed Explorations

Just now in class, at the end with the non-directed standing, I try to let go of my intentions. I try to let go of that “fix-it” head. I try to feel the actual present reality. What is happening?? And my head moves forward on my neck, bobbling over the edge. A little voice says,…

Internal Alchemy: When It is Too Much

A couple of people in my classes have asked what to do when, while doing the Qigong or Zhan Zhuang, the energetic internal process is too much? This is a really good question, and for some people it will make complete sense, while others will have no clue what we are talking about, as we…

Internal Process Incomplete Recommended Reading List

I’ve been teaching these Internal Process classes for the last few months.  I put together a very incomplete reading list for the people joining the class and in the group on Facebook.  These books have been helpful to me in my internal process work.  I’ll add to it over time.  Please suggest books in the…

Deeper Dimensions of Non-Directed Body Movement

  I have written about Non-Directed Body Movement before.  As I have been teaching more classes lately online, and we’ve been doing it together, I’d like to give a bit more detail of how it helped me and still helps me to go deeper into my process.  I hope it gives some of you permission…

Moving from the Source: Riffs on True Embodimennt

  These days, my religion is just walking around.  The sutra I’m chanting is this form in space.  I’m not interested in yes or no or smart or dumb. I’m worshiping the light beneath my feet. What is it that is stepping?  Walking?  Standing?  Sitting?  Laying down?  What is it that is holding us up?…

Expressing Something True

It can be extremely helpful if someone acknowledges what we’ve been experiencing in our own internal process or we happen to read or hear someone talk about something which we’ve been experiencing, but no one else seems to understand. It can be a lifesaver. Or at least reading or hearing them talk about some of…

The Most Intense Person in the Room

  For all of you folks out there who are always the most intense person in the room, or are waiting for everyone to notice the subtext, or can feel other people as yourself, or are a walking pressure cooker, or can’t get yourself going in one direction, or you feel like an exposed nerve, or…

The Importance of Feeling Qi in Qigong

  I’d like to occasionally share little snippets of what comes to mind while practicing in hopes that it might inspire others. When doing energetic practices such as Qigong, I want to emphasize how important it is to feel the Qi.  We must find our own way to engage with this energy.  It is not…

Walking in the Woods

  Desperate to find a way to interact with life, catching glimpses in sports when movement and space seemed to bend, seemed tactile and plastic.  Not knowing my place or how I’d find my way, I longed for something real with which to commit my awareness.  Knowing somehow and yet isolated, I ventured through high…